I just listened to a great sermon from Pastor Chris Hodges of Church of the Highlands. He was speaking about expanding the capacity of your heart. This really shook me up as I have been at a place of stagnation over the past few weeks. I have not been intentional in my walk and have been at the state of blah. Although, I know God has been working all around me in amazing ways over the past few weeks, I have a difficult time going to Him daily the way that I desire. Writing in this blog helps me to reach down and pull from experiences that have been recently affecting me.
I have felt desensitized to the world around me and that has really bothered me. My heart used to urgently soften when I heard of someone really struggling or having a tough time in their life. But that feeling has not been there lately. And one thing that I have learned in this, is that my faith to God is much more than a feeling. It is a behavior, an action, a choice, a prievelege, a safe place, and most importantly a deep relationship with the one who created me and died for all my faults and failures. Yet, knowing this has not carried over to the way my heart used to break for someone who is on the edge of destruction. Those moments used to cause the fire of God to stir deep in my belly. This "unreaction" may be coming from some bitterness of those who have hurt me or let me down. Or even more a feeling of God not being there in situations I deeply need him in. I'm not sure, I am just thinking out loud and hoping God will come rushing in with an answer or a response to my lack of ferver.
I am now calling out to God for a deep encouter with Him. As David was after God's heart I ask for that same yurning. I know God freely and abundantly gives to those who ask. And, I know now that is not worldly possesions, but spiritual upgrades and renewals. I want God's word to come alive yet again. I know that He is faithful in all things, even when I am not.
be blessed,
your boy elbow
About Me
- Elbow
- I have recently given my life over to the Lord. It has been the greatest joy I have ever felt in my life. I finally have accountability in my life, that I have desperately needed. Through Christ I have the strength to push through anything life throws at me. I love my family and my friends. They are truly such a blessing. I am a southern boy from raising, but I have bounced around the country to stretch myself into the person I am today. I graduated from the University of Florida, so that makes me a proud Gator fan, Go Gators! My brother and I share an apartment in downtown Denver and we are learning how we are so different, but as God says, "We are fearfully and wonderfully created." Psalm 119. I feel that God is leading me to do His work. By helping others who are less fortunate and those suffering with the trials/tribulations of this world. This has just been shown to me over the last few months, as God has been the light of my life! He has truly shown me that no prayer goes unanswered, but it is in His timing. My love for others has taken a whole new level and I look forward to what God has to offer. *2 Corinthians 12:9-10*
2 comments:
Hey Elliot! I ran across your blog randomly... I put your link on ours if you don't mind :). So glad you are doing so well. God is so good isn't he!
-Anne Marie
wow elliot! you are an amazimg writer. I mean your words are so powerful. you truly are a man of God! God is so faithful. I have clung to him and everyday I get more and more peace. I will continue to look to your blog for wise words. hope you are doing great!
God Bless,
Ashley
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